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2021.12.02 00:20 LimpCricket Magic Mushroom Info-Dump
| Greetings! I am someone who lives in an area where mushrooms containing the active alkaloid Psilocybin/Psilocin is legal and entheogenic plants/compounds are a special interest of mine. So, I figured i would save someone the years of work its taken me to gather this info and just make an info dump post. I dont know if info on how to grow them is welcome here but I am also very experienced with that personally ( I will not provide any materials or mushroom spores please dont ask). Ill try to format this as if we are having a conversation and i will list some fun info about the topic-|
"Are mushrooms safe for me to eat? I heard they make some people sick or that they are poison"
Psilosybin mushrooms are very edible and are SAFE to eat. Tripping, on the other hand, can occasionally impact your mental health. There are no known long-term physical effects from ingestion of mushrooms containing psilocybin and psilocin.
Keep in mind that psychedelic mushrooms are non-habit-forming and that the desire to use them can actually decrease with use. They are most often self-regulating. Also, you build an almost immediate tolerance to them after ingestion, preventing you from experiencing their full effects more often than every 4-7 days at least, unless you increase your dose. Many think it can take months without tripping before you can feel the full effects again.
Over years of occasional use, the average user notices no apparent change in his/her physical or mental condition that would be considered detrimental.
Mushrooms have the amazing ability of neruogenesis. This means it can build pathways in the brain that were not there or expand on ones that are. It can undo pathways leading to things such as motor tics, OCD, anxiety, depression and much more. While tripping, your brain is creating and making connections it normally would not have access to ( see infographic below ) and this is what produces it profound effects.
"Okay but what about mental damage? I've heard I can trip forever because of drugs"
As far as long-term mental effects, this is a subject for debate and has no clear-cut answer. Tripping can be a profound experience. And far more often than not, the experience is a very good one. And many believe that the so-called "bad trips" are in fact just hard-to-swallow truths that our mind is having a hard time accepting - I have found this to be abundantly true, any "bad" trip I've had are just me not letting go of the issues that mushrooms are trying to work on.
Long-term mental effects from extended high dosages are quite seldom, but they may include some cognitive impairment and HPPD (Hallucinogen Persisting Perceptual Disorder). This is a condition where visual distortions can come on without the ingestion of mushrooms, and it only happens when the substance is extensively abused over a long period of time. This is what people talk about when they say hippies are "tripping forever" after taking acid or mushrooms in the 60's. Lsd has a much higher chance of causing this even in recreational use but even then it is very rare.
Also, people with dormant mental illness may bring their illness to the surface prematurely by tripping. Mushrooms do not cause mental illness, but they can plausibly draw one to the surface especially if you have trauma that is unresolved in therapy. Trip in a safe setting and eat small doses until you know your tolerance, many of us on the spectrum react much differently to mushrooms than NT people.
"why should i consider taking mushrooms?"
From The Psychedelic Experience by Timothy Leary:
"In planning a session, the first question to be decided is "What is the goal?" Classic Hinduism suggests four possibilities:
(1) For increased personal power, intellectual understanding, sharpened insight into self and culture, improvement of life situation, accelerated learning, professional growth.
(2) For duty, help of others, providing care, rehabilitation, rebirth for fellow men.
(3) For fun, sensuous enjoyment, aesthetic pleasure, interpersonal closeness, pure experience.
(4) For transcendence, liberation from ego and space-time limits; attainment of mystical union."
"Okay that sounds cool, but what do these things actually FEEL like??"
This will be hard to explain and may be long, but the more i write here the more you are actually ready for the effects of mushrooms so bear with me.
Describing hallucinations and visual effects is not possible; not only are they literally indescribable but they're different for each person. Call it a spectrum if you will ;) But nevertheless, I shall attempt the impossible and provide the following shortlist of some distinct types you may run across, in approximate order of how high a dose is needed for the effect.CEV = Closed Eye VisualOEV = Open Eye Visual
-Red/green/blue blips (CEV or OEV)Possibly the most common type of hallucination, this usually occurs at the onset. The basic idea is that a layer of red, green, and blue blips - kind of like looking at a TV set from real close - is superimposed on everything. Most visible in the darkness.
- Pixelization (OEV)The second stage of the RGB effect is "pixelization", ie. everything seems to be composed of separate little bits, like pixels on a computer screen. This effect is difficult to describe, all I can say is you'll know what it is when you see it. People who aren't computer freaks think it looks like a fine mesh or web placed over your field of vision.
- Tracers (OEV)Moving objects that contrast sharply with their background (tip of lit incense stick against a dark room, ball flying against the blue sky, etc) leave colorful trails.
- Red shift (OEV)Everything looks like you're looking at it through glasses with their lenses dyed red. Now you know why hippies loved red sunglasses so much... =)
- Breathing (OEV)A very common effect at medium to high doses, the object in question starts to pulse in and out, bubble, shift, split into multiple layers, morph to the point of being entirely unrecognizable... Usually visible in bigger objects, such as expanses of sand, clouds, textured walls and carpets, etc.
-Melting (OEV)The direct corollary of breathing, best seen in plants and trees. The object in question starts acting like it was made of plastic, and somebody started to heat it; it distorts, flows downwards, maybe wiggles a bit from side to side in a cosmic dance of sorts. Shadows may exhibit a special form of melting: they move by themselves.
- Haloing (OEV)Usually, shroom visuals start off as a "haloing" of misty rainbow colors off of anything I look at. Eventually, as the trip intensifies, I get what I call "kodaking" or "polarising" - the "halos" around the mundane 3-D objects begin to morph into "snapshots" - usually of family members or past experiences recalled from differing perspectives.The "snapshots" have a kind of "infinite ripple effect" around the edges, as if they are evaporating away in time... this is not exactly right, but I don't know how else to describe it. Ooh, maybe this... They are fractalized around the edges. I have studied this effect for quite some time and I have come to believe that this "hallucination" is due to a shift in the speed at which I perceive light. The "fractalized edges" tend to strobe and flicker and recede off into infinity. The closer I scrutinize the edges the more complex they become - ad infinitum. Good music, good weed, or a combination of both will "animate" the snapshots - get them morphing and oozing into different scenes more rapidly.
- The Guardian (CEV or OEV)A few people, including yours truly, are lucky enough to have a constant hallucination that lasts for the duration of the trip and even afterward; Castaneda mentions these in his books and calls them "guides" or "guardians". Two forms include a little blue lattice containing red and green blips, and a bright red star. These may or may not recur in different trips and also flashbacks after the trip itself is over.Geometric patterns (CEV)One type of hallucination is the geometric pattern. There are many subtypes of these: Mandelbrot's, spirals, wave interference patterns,etc. The unifying feature is that they tend to be in primary colors and of a fractal nature, ie. the same basic pattern is repeated continually. These are two-dimensional with lower doses, but they become 3D on higher doses.
- "The Fire-Flow of Internal Unity" (CEV)This involves more of *feeling* something than *seeing* it, although there are undescribable hallucinations accompanying the feelings. The distinct difference to the last one is that the visuals are not geometric and separate, but amorphous, dim shapes directly linked to the emotions one is experiencing, which can be positive (bliss, love, peace) or negative (isolation, withdrawal, sadness)
- Traditional patterns (CEV)Visuals containing imagery from Aztec, Mayan, Native American, Indian and African cultures are quite common. These vary from seeing something exactly like a picture/statue of a native god to more vague visions of scriptures and temples to just a fuzzy idea of the hallucinations being 'drawn' in a specific style.
- Hallucinations (CEV, rarely OEV)Actual hallucinations - ie. objects that are recognizable and appear real, but are not there - may occur on high-dose trips. If lucky, the tripper may even be transported into a literal, as opposed to merely figurative, Alice-in-Wonderland type alternate universe. This is not the same as merely feeling things like "I felt like a satellite" or "I was transported by the music", with real hallucinations the visuals are equivalent to a color 3-D movie on a 360-degree screen.Entities (CEV, rarely OEV)Encounters with other beings are a recurring feature of high-dose trips. I will not tackle the complex philosophical issues of what they are (if anything), how they got there, and what they mean; all I know is that they exist BECAUSE MULTIPLE PEOPLE SITTING IN ONE SESSION AROUND A FIRE CAN INTERACT WITH THE EXACT SAME ENTITY. Some common types:
Clear Light of Reality (CEV or OEV)Nirvana, ego loss, Non-Game Ecstasy, enlightenment, ultimate truth, "the infallible mind of the pure mystic state", etc. One thing's for sure, you'll recognize it if you get there. =) Again, while any decent trip will seriously reduce the domination of the ego and let you see quite a lot that you wouldn't normally notice, the "Clear Light" kind of total ego loss is quite rare and even experienced trippers consider themselves lucky if they've had a single one of these so-called 'Level 5' experiences.This should not be taken as a thorough or complete list. Aside from these specific types, you will almost certainly notice that everything, especially nature, simply looks *different*: new, fresh and somehow alien and familiar at the same time. The most minute details will stand out and the contrasts between colors will be enhanced. I find this ability to view the world differently to be one of the most rewarding aspects of psychedelics, and I once more strongly recommend going outside and checking it out.
"And what will my body itself feel like?"
Again, its different for every person. But you should expect feelings of queasiness if you ingested solids and did not strain it into a tea. You should also expect a very odd gurgling feeling in your stomach especially on the come-up. Your second brain is in your stomach and the mushrooms will hit these receptors first before your brain in your skull. Feelings of uneasiness and anxiety can be most severe while the feelings are coming on and will usually fade on the onset of visual distortion.
"Okay, I'm ready to take mushrooms now! So what kind do I need? Are there different kinds of Magic Mushrooms that have different effects? "
There are 4 main sub-categories of Magic mushrooms to choose from and they all have slightly different effects (many more are being found but these are the main 4). They all contain psilocybin/psilocin, but they can also contain other alkaloids that change or shift the effects when ingested. The 4 main groups of mushrooms are -
Cubensis- these are the most commonly eaten mushroom sub-type. They are cheap and easy to grow with readily available supplies and spores for sale. These mushrooms have the classic traits you may think of when discussing magic mushrooms and can lead you to the effects described above. These mushrooms have a slightly higher chance than most to make your stomach queazy and nauseous when eaten and not strained into a tea.
Panaeolus- THE BOMB DIGGITY - This sub-type is my absolute favorite. Harder to grow and harder to find but these puppies contain a massive amount of serotonin in them, yes that serotonin. So, when you eat these you get the visuals but also a feeling of happiness and joy that is akin to MDMA without the jittery amphetamine tendencies of MDMA. This means it is also harder to have a "bad trip" on these mushrooms and it is far more likely to be a life-changing event. These also are what i Microdose with (see below for info on that) and are much better than cubensis for that. That is something I never see talked about is how cubensis is sub-par IMO for microdosing especially when we have these to choose from. Talk about an amazing anti-depressant it literally dosing yourself with serotonin lol.
Truffles - These are a sub-type of mushroom that forms under the ground instead of above it like a mushroom cap. We won't get into the science here behind what makes a truffle a truffle, mainly because these feel very much like cubensis and should be considered mostly the same when it comes to visuals and body effects.
Azurescens- VERY strong and very rare wood loving species of mushrooms. Can have paralysis-like effects and can be much different than any of the other mushrooms listed here. I would steer clear of these until you are very experienced with mushrooms and can do the research as to whether or not you want to try these. These are also more uplifting and tent to be a better feeling than cubensis.
Sorry to any cubensis fans out there, I just do not prefer them and most I talk to don't prefer them either after trying Panaeolus mushrooms. If you have not tried mushrooms and would like a good first time, I would recommend the Panaeolus but always remember they are much stronger so the dosage chart will be different. They are usually from my experience 10x stronger than cubensis.
"Okay, I have the mushroom in mind that I want. how do i take these things? Do i need to cook them or anything?"
The best method for taking mushrooms depends on your preffered effects. Eating the dried or freshly cut mushrooms is always an option, but the solid meterial increases the chance of nausea and vomitiing which im guess if your like me is bad sensory. To avoid this, boiling some water and a small amount of lemon with the solids then straining the solids out is my prrferred method. Not only will the effects come on sooner and faster avoiding that come up anxiety, but you willmost likely not puke which ois always a plus for me. Bonus if you add some fresh ginger to the tea it helps alot.
BTW- these things taste BAD! like a strong fishy taste, you do not want to just eat this srait up if you dont want a tea. Mix them into chocolate or into something you can find that will be easy to down and will at least distract you from that flavor.
"Where should I do my mushrooms? Should I be alone or with other people?"
Perhaps the most important part you'll read here. This is going to be different for most of us depending on our place in the autism spectrum, but ill try to do some general do's and don'ts. I personally would advise tripping either alone or with a close friend in the most familiar and safe area you have. Most of the time this will be your bedroom or backyard. This is called set and setting and they are the factors that decide whether not you have a good comfortable time in a good trip or a challenging one. NEVER trip when you are feeling "off" or don't feel like it's a good time do not force it. If you have unresolved trauma in therapy tread lightly and be ready for that to come up in your trip, be ready to feel the emotions you may have bottled up because this is a medicine that makes you face what is holding you back.
"And the amount? How much should i take?"
It is recommended you eat or strain between .75 and 1.5g grams of dried Cubensis for your first trip, without the addition of a MAOI. Usually, .75 - 1.5g is perfect. More than 2g may be asking for trouble. Some people suggest a dose as low as .25g, but any dose less than that is imperceptible in most humans. I will say though my microdoses can get down to .10 and I for sure feel it in many ways most dont and i hear the same from others on the spectrum.
Some people will say 1.5g is not very potent. And true, 1.5 grams may be a disappointingly mild trip. It could also be surprisingly strong.
Remember, different people have different reactions to mushrooms. If you have never tripped, how do you know how you'll react?
With the proper set and setting, .75 - 1.5g is a fine suggested first dose. Without the proper set and setting, don't even bother tripping.
A person with a LOW psilocybin tolerance will trip on 1.5g like they ate 4.5g or more (which is a very large dose for an unsuspecting newbie). This is true. Many people on the spectrum have very LOW tolerances. We are just very sensitive to psilocybin. It is best to start small, to make sure you know your tolerance. Besides, the VAST majority of first-time trippers will have their minds expanded on 1.5g whether they have a high tolerance or not.
On the other hand, some people have a HIGH tolerance to psilocybin and they will not trip as much on 1.5g as most people.
It is better to be safe than sorry. Start small, find your tolerance, then work up to a higher dose... if you wish. There is nothing wrong with keeping your dosage small. Small doses gone bad, are much less mentally traumatic than large doses.
Most experienced trippers take between 1.5 grams and 3.5 grams for what they'd consider an "Average" trip. It is not recommended that somebody exceed this recommended .75 - 1.5g dosage until they're familiar with, and know how to take control of the trip experience. Even then, large doses of shrooms can be awe-inspiringly frightening.
Panaeolus species can be 5-10x stronger and the weight of your first done should be adjusted accordingly.
As for hallucinations on your first trip compared to the future ones-
You can trip on a pretty small dose, but hallucinations are more noticeable with medium to large doses. Don't expect to hallucinate too much on a small dose, you may be disappointed. Hallucinations are not as important as many first time trippers have been led to believe. Until you understand tripping and tolerance, stick to small doses. You'll still have a great time. Some people just see more stuff than others.
First time trippers benefit from taking doses that aren't likely to induce hallucinations. You can find your bearings at this level; you begin to feel a buzz and you can't quite put your finger on it. Then, when you wish to elevate your experience, you are familiar with the mushroom-trip sensation. This is most beneficial to enjoying hallucinations.
"I hear lot about micro-dosing, what is that? and how can autistic people benefit even more than NT people from micro dosing?"
Im going to add in a picture for this because it cpuld be a whole other info dump. Basically, a microdose is a dose small enough that it will not make you "trip". Some even try microdoses as a way to ease into mushrooms if they are afraid of the .5 - 1.5 gram doses that most start off with and this is a great way to ensure you WONT have a bad or challenging trip your first few times. Microdosing can help with things like OCD, ODD, Sensory processing disorder, and other issues most of us fce on the spectrum. It wont take it all away, buit it can help you build internal tools to regulate the feelings it gives you. CHECK THE BOTTOM OF THE PAGE FOR AN INFOGRAPHIC ON MICRODOSING FOR A PRETTIER EXPLINATION.
A WORD OF CAUTION TO THOSE OF US ON THE SPECTRUM- while mushrooms can help us with things in our mind and body,we also must be aware of any limitations we may have. There can be amazing sensory on mushrooms and also sensory that is very unsettling and can be too much for some people. If you are like me and have issues with body sensory such as - digestion issues cause by anxiety, intolerance to cold or the feeling of cold limbs, intolerance to any jitteriness in your body, intolerance to feeling "off". None of this means you cant take mushrooms, but you need to prepare yourself for a more challenging time than NT people report with this, some people even find these issues get reduced after their trip because mushrooms rewired that part of the brain.
GROWING MUSHROOMS VS BUYING THEM:
Personally, the thought of having to leave my house and find some person I dont know to buy mushrooms off of is the closest thing to hell i can think of lol. Growing them is VERY easy and VERY cheap but can also be VERY ILLEGAL depending on where you live so check your laws and make your decision. ( just saying personal growers arent caught because there just isnt enough man power to catch the guy growing some fungi in his closet for personal use). 40 bucks and one trip to target and lowes and you could be growing the next day after your spores arrive in the mail but this is a WHOLE OTHER info dump in not sure would be allowed here lol.
If you have ANY questions I would be glad to answer them here or on PM! I probably missed one or two things people would want to know so let me know if you want some other info
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2021.12.02 00:20 ifeelbadforher433 I feel bad for the girl who tried to homewreck my relationship over a year ago.
Obligatory throw away account.
My husband (24) and I (26) have been together for 3 years now. We met online playing a game together and stayed long distance until almost our 2 year anniversary. We got married on our 3rd year anniversary.
I have to preface that I don't feel bad for her as though I'm embarrassed for her, for feel bad for her making herself look easy. None of that.
A little bit before our one year together, my husband (boyfriend at the time) was playing the game we met on and made friends with this girl. She is what you would consider an e-girl by all easy means of description. Very flirtatious, high pitched voice when she's around the boys, self centered, and childish. I believe she was 20 when she met him.
By no means do I care if my husband has female friends, but something felt... familiarly bad about this girl within the first few moments I spoke to her. I knew something was off. Immediately, I told him I did not trust her and did not want him around her in private. We were still long distance at this point and I was worried that they were talking in private when I wasn't home talking to him. He was always very social and would only voice chat in our mutual discord server with our mutual friends throughout the day, but the couple of weeks she was there, he would tell me she was "uncomfortable" being in a big public voice chat with strangers. I found this odd then, and still do to this day, since they met on a game where socializing with strangers is the entire purpose.
They would privately voice call, but it only happened 2-3 times before a big fight between me and my boyfriend happened. He started telling me that nothing was going on, she didn't want him romantically, that she wanted to hang out so much because "he was the only guy that didn't treat her like a sex object". Red. Flag. City. I was having none of it and broke up with him on spot since he could not respect my own personal boundaries.
Fast forward a couple of months. Our one year has come and gone without any celebration, we haven't spoken at all except for the occasional me checking in on him and his sister. There was a lot of toxicity between us prior to the breakup, even prior to her. Trust issues from my past made it nearly impossible for me to trust him then when nothing was happening, so her coming along made the red flags and insecurities sky rocket. I hated both of them, but wished them well. A healing process I guess.
As far as I was aware at this point, I had no evidence anything ever happened between them. Nothing. They were friends and that's all I had to believe. But my gut kept screaming otherwise.
In the following months, he asked if we would be able to talk. By this point, I'd started to move on, had a new man I was talking to, but I convinced myself I needed some sort of closure. He broke down and told me everything. Now, what he all went through is not my story to tell, so there won't be as much to talk about here as my own personal experience above, but from what haunts me to this day and why I feel sorry for her, is how right my gut was.
Nothing happened while we were dating, thankfully. He was angry at me for not having trust in him, fair enough. He essentially admitted to using her as a rebound when we split. For months they were never an official thing, but there for each other. Things happened and moments slipped, he realized he missed me and she wasn't worth the rebounding in his opinion. They didn't click, and she would get drunk and flirt with other men while he was around.
Long story short, we had a VERRRRY long conversation and agreed to get back together under terms that we would actually communicate this time around. That we would confide in each other instead of bottling up emotions and spiraling out of control. That we would be there for each other.
Here's why I feel sorry for her. It took me years to realize that "familiarly bad" feeling was seeing my younger self in someone else's shoes. I've long since matured but from what he has told me, that girl was essentially a younger me. I've seen things she's posted since, the way she acted, and compared it to me years ago. It's uncannily similar. I feel bad because I have a sense of wanting to fix people and wanting to protect young girls from the shit I went through. I don't want to see them hurt the way I hurt then. It's by no means an excuse to say it's fine what she did, no. I don't forgive her, but I feel bad for her that no one was there for her just like no one was there for me back then.
Long story short, if you are someone who actively pursues people in a relationship for fun, for validation, for the concept that you can get what you want whenever you want by being sexual... Someone will love you for you. Someone will love you for the heart you have and the soul you have. It took me years to learn this, and I needed that help from ironically, the man I'm with now. We've both grown, and it took being raw and open with each other to get to a point I've never been in a healthier relationship.
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2021.12.02 00:20 420elijah69 some random thoughts on memoryheads
i saw a post in this sub a bit ago that compared the faces on the memoryheads to the secret bosses we’ve been shown. at first it seemed completely batshit tbh but like. comparing the faces its not insane. a few things worth mentioning to back it up that i haven’t seen discussed: using the item command on them causes the flavor text “The enemy put a piece of itself in your inventory.” to appear, then you receive the “bad memory” item. the secret bosses have been shown to give you a piece of themselves regardless of how you beat them, and are the only enemies to give you an item specifically for defeating them, and alongside memoryhead are the only ones to give a “piece of itself” to the player, drawing further parallels. notably, both the bad memory and s. poison uhhhhh. “affect hp greatly”. if the memoryheads are actually amalgmates, it could be that they’re a combination of the secret boss items that will be obtained. this is furthered by there being three memoryheads, as a hidden item obtained the first time you beat jevil will be obtainable in any ch2 file that hasnt beaten him as long as he’s been defeated in any other ch1 file. this also may explain how these darkners can exist in the undertale world, as its simply an amalgamation of their parts rather than their whole selves.
another thing to note is their very name, being that the name implies that they are a head made up of memories. if the secret bosses make up the memoryheads, then who’s memories are they supposed to be? they cant be the players, as we still, six years after the release of undertale, dont even know who makes up the memoryheads for sure, and only know of two of the secret bosses. i could say that they’re chara’s and that chara has been through the deltarune world but i kinda hate that theory so i wont say that lol. tbh? i have no clue whose memories their supposed to be, but they’re portrayed to us via the item given to be bad ones.
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2021.12.02 00:20 fadedwiggles [Serious] What initially dumb life hack, ended up being your favorite life hack?
2021.12.02 00:20 microwavedJellybean7 An honour to be in the top 1% of JJ's listeners, keep up the good work
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2021.12.02 00:20 luciovstudio Espresso cookie~ 5/6 cookie run fanarts i did. Guess who is the last one~
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2021.12.02 00:20 Takhisis6ixty9ine Damn it’s true theres sexualization of children all through this show!
2021.12.02 00:20 Affectionate_Lock_81 How do you spawn modded weapons I downloaded the light saber mid and can’t find it
2021.12.02 00:20 incelbaitsince2000 Nothing like cheap booze as I finish my course work, failing half my classes. Cheers partners and happy trails
2021.12.02 00:20 aschwan41 Someday I'll see you again, SensWin.